"We endure so much more than we think we can, all human experience testifies to that. All we need to do is learn not to be afraid of the pain. Grit your teeth and let it hurt. Don't deny it, don't be overwhelmed by it. it will not last forever. One day the pain will be gone and you'll still be here." -Harold Kushner

     It seems no matter how hard I try I just cant seem to do or get anything right. I am just me and if you cant accept me for who I am or accept the fact that I have been more of a friend then oh heck well. I really hate people who throw around there money. I may not have things to offer I can buy you shit but, I have been good to you! A part of me want to go back to my old ways shut em out then I don't have to feel, I don't think I am wrong in that either.
     I feel horrible I have managed to get both of Dennis daughters up in arms with him and for all they know he isn't even the one posting or saying shit but, since they think it was what are we suppose to do? I think they are both selfish and just uncaring, and cold hearted to treat their own father like they have. I think it is so sad he is more loved and respected by my children then he is by his own. The second to oldest thought she would be funny and let everyone know just how much she loves her children in which she should but then she mentions that money hungry bitch of an ex wife who she calls mom. Sorta funny the story I hear Dennis was only with Lori for 4 years and his girls hated her then she was the horrible step mom they didn't even live with them that long before going back to their mommy in Ga. How sad and pathetic are you to say you admire your ex step moms husband as a godly father who taught you how to treat his wife. You make laugh. When your own father treats his wife like a queen we laugh, cry, love , worship, and always together but, yet you think running your mouth is going to solve anything. I got your game girl you just jealous that your dads not going to take your shit no more he has a real family now people in his life that love him and don't treat him like he is trash. I think you both should be totally ashamed of yourself how you've acted since your both what 30 something and you act like your in High school. So sad and pathetic!
     On a better note we went to church this evening with our wonderful church for Christmas eve services. Made it home safe this year without a dear hitting us this year..lol.

     I tell you what I do not give a crap how old Dennis oldest daughter is she is being a total BITCH. I can not believe how disregardful she is being to her own dad and how ugly she is being with words towards him. Okay miss I am to big for my britches easy to post some words on a FB status but, do you have the nerve to call him up and say the crap to his face? I bet you wouldn't like what he has to say!!

     This is her post Love? Hypocrisy? Loyalty? Passing Judgement? Forgiving? Now that is a subject you and I should never discuss. I forgave you years ago God alone can judge me its not my place to take YOUR inventory. As far as loyalty my husband my children and my family are loyal we cry together rejoice together serve each other and our community never looking at what we can gain only what we can give. Hypocrite now that is one I'm gonna have to walk away from because it will dredge up old feelings difference between me and you I have no guilt or regrets

     What gives this ungrateful brat the audacity to muster such words at this man who has not done a damn thing to her except post a few bible verses in which she must have such a horrible guilty conscious about that she thinks he is speaking to her. Hello brat life does not rotate around you and guess what you aren't that important anymore. I guess since your mom went and killed herself about 4 our so years ago that gives you the right to help your other parent walk right out of your life to. Was you never taught respect? 

     Oh and dont get me started on loyalty you selfish little bitch. This man is loyal to his family the ones who have been there. Where have you been? Have you had a chance to come see your father and didnt? Pssshh you got some freakin nerve because this man and his family yes I said his family which includes me, Britt, Dacoda, Justin, and Josh we all cry together  we rejoice together  we serve each other and our community and our churches never asking what we can gain in return its also only what we can give. So, your not all that special Ms. We are the ones who have been there for each other not you. We are his family and we chose it because we love him. Kinda funny you say you love him but, yet you have never done anything for him. Where is the giving for the man who gave you life? In the 15 years I have been with this man he has had a mini stroke and two minor heart attacks where were you? Not at your fathers side. We was! We never left his side. So, I tell you what he don't need you, we more then make up for you. I tell you what though you keep running your crappy ass mouth you are gonna find out who I am.

     Amazing that nothing ever changes or no wait what is it that they said " somethings never change" she actually had the nerve to say that to her father!? I tell you what if I had the power to reach through a screw and slap the stupid out of her I would have. She has not seen her father on ummm 15 or more years. She doesn't even know the man yet she has the nerve to disrespect him like that? She has the assiduity to muster such filth from her mouth. She has no idea how she has hurt the man who has done nothing but, love her. She should be ashamed of herself how she is trying to hurt him. Trust me words can cut deeply and she has managed to do just that because now he is ready to just be rid of her. He knows who loves him and its sad to say when his own flesh is so callous and cold its more then cruel. He has said more then ones "his family is right here" he knows who loves him. He says he is not hurt but I see that he is. I am angry because she has hurt someone I love and yes I wish there was something I could say but, he tells me leave it alone. That's okay darling go ahead keep ramming that knife in a little more and push your father a little more away every time. Then maybe one day you will see where you screwed up and then it will all be to late and you will wish you had been a little more kind.