It is amazing how much life can change in a blink of an eye. Last year before Thanksgiving Dennis having a minor heart attack really scared the hell out of me. I was so scared of losing him and it left me to wondering how would I make it and raise the kids with out him? I remember seeing him laying there clucking his chest and me screaming out him with tears in my eyes " don't you fuckin leave me!!" From that event it sent a course for several events to do nothing but create heart attack and pain. People I tried to help and thought was friends turned out to be nothing but alcoholic, lying, whores. Because of some scentless things said about some people, well I had one or two people turned against me in my church. Even though what was supposedly said of me was not true at all. My adopted mom once again had another surgery I was not allowed to know of while yet again my sister Brandy knew it all and was able to be there while I was not. Who is she to keep me out? I do not want to hate but, events and actions of others make me so angry and all I want to do is hate. I keep forgiving but, this just keeps building up and I don't know how much more I can take of the crappy way I keep getting treated. Why cant I have good people in my life? Why cant I have real friends or family that actually give a rats ass about me for once?
     The New Year has started and so far it has been a wonderful changing journey. Dennis has a new job with the YMCA he is a maintenance supervisor and we will have lots of benefits and health insurance this is something we have needed in a long time and we are both so happy and excited for this new change. I am in my senior year with Walden U. I am excited to be on the last stretch of my educational journey.