quiet

     Well things around my house today were a little more peaceful today. After being up till after 1 am upset and crying over this whole issue with this girl named Shannon and finding out about things I wished I had not. I contacted the girl last night after I seen I was not getting through to Dacoda about the whole issue. She is a major slut!! I told her to leave both my sons Justin and Dacoda alone I do not even want them to be friends with her and she will be removed from there FB friends list as well and I told her if she continued to be a problem I was going to take the 30 pages of messages her and my son did to her mother and show her what an angel she is. I could not believe some of the filthy crap I was reading between the two of them. I also can not believe my 17 year old son has already slept with her. He says he used protection but, she told the boys she cant get pregnant which I am sure is another load of BS and I pray he used protection I would hate for him to be tied to this trailer white trash for the rest of his life. This girl is only 17 also and very stupid and very slutty. She stated in one message that counting my son she has already slept with 11 people. I say people because she proclaims to be bi and some of them was girls.
     I changed the password to the router so he could not get on his psp and txt with her. I was so freaking pissed off when I found out he had been lying to us about breaking up with her. I have a bad temper and I can yell when I am upset.
     So, today was quiet around here Dennis my husband took Dacoda to town to fill out and drop off more job apps. He wants to be grown and keeps reminding us to get out of his business because he is 17 okay well time to be grown and get a job and start pulling your own weight. You want a car and to take driver ED. but you don't want to show any responsibility. Time to change all that.
     I went swimming in our pool today with my youngest son Joshua then I was so tired from being up over 24 hours I crashed and slept till about 7 when I woke up smelling dinner and remembered I needed to eat something. My sugar levels have been high and I have not been taking care of myself as I should. I know I need to work on that.
     I think Dennis was let go from his weekly job at Reed's Landscape and irrigation however, I don't think Dennis really gives a damn about it right now since Reed is an ass and was cutting pay down more and more per week and the hours was cut more and more per week. Things seem to be working out though because Dennis has some tile work to do for our company Dawn Construction.In my opinion that is better for him anyhow he is no spring chicken and it has been so hot here already been lots of triple digit heat. I guess I wont worry about him as much. He does say he will find another permanent job though. I still haven't had any luck in going to work seems no one wants to hire me. I only got one interview also. I guess it will happen when it does for now I am going to continue to pursue my bachelors in Human resources and Business administration. 

miss him already

It was a beautiful Sunday here in Huntsville, TX. I had planned to spend sometime with Dennis and relax in the pool but since I had been up most the night trying to reformat my laptop and get it working correctly about 11 am i crashed and did not wake up till about 4pm and so i missed out on all the sunshine and relaxing in the pool. I really wish I could sleep at nights. I do not know why i am not able to get on a "normal" sleeping habit. It is rather frustrating.
Justin left this morning to go to Arlington for a week with the church for a mission trip. I am so proud of him. I miss him already he has never been gone any where for more then a few days. I bet Dacoda is liking it though because he gets their room all to his self. One good thing is we are down to two kids and one less mouth to feed this week..lol wow can these boys eat.

my kiddos....

Dacoda with our newest  to our family Baxter

My handsome son Justin he is only 15 and already has facial hair

And this is my youngest and the baby of the family

Joshua isnt he cute. I plan to get hom a hair cut this week

Last but not least my fur babies 

Neely whom ive had since a tiny baby and is now 8 years old and our new puppy Baxter

family issues

   I had some major issues going on in the house yesterday and I was not sure how I was going to have to deal with it.
   I know I did not raise Dacoda nor has he been around his brothers to have some morals and values to be instilled into him so this was a very difficult subject to deal with.Justin was so upset and hurt by it all and actually hated his brother for it. Justin had dated this girl named Shannon who we soon found out was not the best girl in high school to date. She even let Justin know while they was dating she had slept with one of her ex bf's. This put a bad taste in my mouth about her and I already did not like her. It got worst when she went for my older son Dacoda and Dacoda not caring or having any morals and lines to cross boundaries about this subject started dating her and she was already confession she loved him so much. I just wanted the little slutty pants to go away. Anyhow after a day of everyone screaming at each other and being pissed Dacoda finally decided to do the right thing and broke up with Mz Slutty pants!! Much to my approval and he also apologized to his brother Justin and told him he did not mean to cause problems between them over a girl.

not a bad one

     Today was not to bad of a day. Dennis went to work on a tile job he is doing and the two oldest boys Justin and Dacoda went swimming in the lake and went fishing all day. These poor kids must be gluten for punishment because these white boys came home really red sun burnt and hurting bad.
    
      I got some good news and some much needed answer to some prayers and some financial issues I have been having and it looks like in a few weeks something will be a little better.

     I also got some bad news today. It appears my baby brother Shawn all 6ft4" and 374 lbs. of him ,who just got out of prison 6 months ago couldn't not seem to stay on the straight and narrow and ended up back on the drug "ice". I am praying he is not sent back to prison he has so many issues and he needs help and prison isn't the help he needs. I pray they will send him to a rehab for the drugs.On the other hand I am so pissed off at my sister Brandy and my bil I do not understand how he could work for them and they not see that there was something wrong with him and tried to do something before it went this way for him. So, now if I want to see my brother I have to go to Huntville detention center for now to see him.


  I have not been sleeping well for the last few days its almost 1 am so I am hoping I can lay down and go to sleep but, Im not counting on it. I can lay there till dawn and watch the tv then once the sun is up I can fall asleep so fast its very odd. I feel that its still other lying health issues going on with me. Not sure if its pinned to mental issues or not.


  I also talked to my mom today and let her know I was not going to be able to make it out there. I also hinted around to her about coming to see us. It would be a nice change and my family never does come to see me so I think if they want they could come here just as well as we go there every year.

wonder why

So, as I sit here after trying to do some of my geometry homework and not getting to far with it since I can not concentrate and my rain feels like it is fried, I thought I would come blog. It feels like ages since I blog. I used to blog on myspace a lot. Then I stopped because me being so open I spoke my mind and there was some people who had a problem with things I said so anyhow I stopped. However, now I don't give a rats ass who reads this or what they don't like this is my life and I am not going to sugar coat things.


I went to court this morning to be at my ex husbands bond hearing. I do not know why the judge took pity on the poor man who for years managed to not pay his child support he lowers his bond to a $500 cash bond. It was funny he is 40 years old and stated in court to the judge he would have to ask his mom if she could get him the money to bond him out. Seriously, his mom can not be such a big wuss that once again she lets her son out on a free pass instead of making him do what he has to. I am hoping he don't bond out and he has to sit there till our next court hearing on CS on Sept 28th personally I feel he belongs in jail for over a year he has done nothing but live between his mommy's house and his gf Shannon's house two women who enable him to sit on his ass in there homes and not lift a finger. He lives in the Austin area but he can not find a job. The judge laughed at him about that one. My ex James is a big loser always has been wished id of known then what I know now but he is 40 and still a big loser and has nothing going for himself. He likes to go to Grahams in Austin and yet has money to go there and drink but he can not pay his CS. HMMMMMM!!

This is a picture of my ex with his gf Shannon at Grahams actually isn't that funny.
 I feel sorry for Shannon because she is a stupid bitch who is so desperate for a man to be in her life she will keep a loser like my ex James...who BTW not only has 3 children with me he doesn't support but the ignorant ass went and started a new family and had three more children with another women who finally woke up and left his ass and he don't support them kids either.THATS 6 KIDS TOTAL THAT HE DOES NOT SUPPORT!!!

more of my family

This is my mom(Judy) & my aunt Darlene

This is my mom(judy), my baby cousin Sarah, and my aunt Shirley

god opens new doors

So, Today I was stressing because we found out Dennis boss in which he works for Reeds landscape and irrigation has been screwing him out of his pay since April. He quotes "because it is his company he can pay any way he likes" and his pay scale he has set in motion really does suck. He is taking it out on his employees who get out in this sometimes 105F weather and bust there humps to make a pay check but also make this man a lot of money. It is not his employees fault that his work is slow due to the drought we are in so that he can make a "profit". I think it is really shitty of this man to do his employees this way and I am not sure but, I don't think much can be done since all of his employees are contract labor. However, I bet the IRS would like to know a few things about his business. I know sometime my mouth gets me in trouble and yea sometimes it over loads my ass but, I am a out spoken person and I don't lie or pretend to be something or someone I am not and sometimes people don't like what I have to say.
Anyhow on to the open door so since Dennis has had a check of under 80 dollars for the last two weeks and for a family that don't get welfare help its pretty impossible to feed our kids much less pay bills. So, Dennis had an old friend and client call him up and asked him to do some work and Dennis can make more in two days then he can with Reed in two weeks so Dennis is doing what he has to do to support his family. Even if that means Reed might let him go for it.

How do I disappoint her

I have been avoiding calling my mom for days. I know I am going to get the dreaded question "are you coming to the reunion?" I really hate to disappoint my mom and I know this will disappoint her very much especially since I have Dacoda home and I know everyone would like to see him.
Its really not because I don't have the money to go. If I wanted to go I could its really based on the fact I just don't want to go. I would rather spend our money on a trip to Kemah or New Branfuels(sp) then to go to yet another very boring event at the Robert Lee community building that has nothing to do but sit and look at people. Most the time everyone has there own little family clicks so we don't get spoken to much so I don't see why we would want to go an be ignored again this year. Also its just not the same without my grandma we loved to stay at grandmas and then I actually had time to visit with my grandma and my mother. Now I don't get to visit with my mom she is so busy trying to please her family and her family she gets to see once a year is put on the back burner. So, no I do not want to go to the reunion this year.
Actually I am upset with my mom on the fact that she can not make plans to come see her children. We all are located right here in the same area and she would be able to make plans to see and visit all three of her children but, my mom always has an excuse. I am tired of hearing the excuses really I am.

Hello starting new

I am on blogger under a different screen name. However, I did not keep up with that page or that blog so I decided to start a new page and a new blogger and I hope I can keep up with this one. I want to introduce my family to you all. I have a wonderful family and I will start with the love of my life for 14 years and this month on June 30 will be our 4Th wedding anniversary.
this is Dennis my husband he completes me and I do not know where my life would be if he had not come into mine.









Then I will start with my oldest child my daughter Brittany is beautiful and she left me to live in NYC on July 6, 2010 I miss her very much and wish she would come home but she is 19 years old and life is a party to her so she is out living it up.














Next would be my second child Dacoda he is 17 years old and came to live back at home last month for good. Its a long story why he didn't live with me and that will give me material to write about in a future blog.














My third child is Justin and he is 15 years old. He is the sunshine in my day and moms shouldn't have favorites but I think he is mine.
I have included two pictures of him because one is how he looked just a few days ago with his blonde afro and the 2nd one is how he looks now.





















okay and third is my baby Joshua he just turned 11 years old. He is a little ham and likes to make his mommy smile,he is the light in my life.