Life proves to be surprising to me sometimes. I have been going through so much change in the last few months. I am watching Justin my 16 year old son grow up way to fast. He has his DL will be in the 11Th grade when school starts back up in the spring and he has a part time job at Wendy's. I am so proud of him out of his older siblings he has done so much on his own with out thinking something is just going to be handed to him. My youngest Joshua is 12 and will be going into Jr High school in the spring. He is also now in the youth at church and getting to do things he has never done before and he is loving it.

     Today I am dealing with the pain of having to let go of a friendship that meant a lot to me. A friendship I have had a very long time. I had to think long and hard about it but, Dennis said I can not continue with this toxic friendship anymore. Dennis said she is nothing but a spoiled  who will always have her mommy and daddy to lean on and pay her bills and keep a roof over her head while she boo hoos on the internet to people she thinks are her friends and plays the victim and look at poor pitiful me ..feel sorry for me...Okay so that's Dennis view of her but, after a talk he asked me sit there and write down all the good things now write down all the bad. Now tell me when has she ever really been there for you? How many times has she held your hand and been there? She really hasn't. She will never be on your level Amy. She don't know what its like to have children and to struggle wonder how your going to feed your kids or keep a roof over your head. I guess in a lot of ways he is right. Our friendship has been toxic. I am still in shock though I never thought she would of done what she did. Talk about me like that behind my back then lie and say she didn't say any names okay does that make it any better? No, you still ran your mouth about someone you supposedly cared about. Someone who was suppose to be your best friend. How sad are you that you need attention so bad you stooped so low. I am sorry this is not the kind of friend I want. I can not trust you and never will again. So, yes it is best to say good bye and be done with the friendship. I have other friends and I know God will open the door for me to have another Best friend a better good friendship for me. Not one who will constantly hurt me.

     On a better note Rebecca came to visit with her daughter Elizabeth a week ago. I really enjoyed our time together. I also really love those girls. We had good talks and a great visit. We all went to Schlitterbahn in Galveston. Which included Dacoda and Justin GF Heaven. We had so much fun. 

     Our AC went out in the house and has been out now for 9 days the AC man came out and looked at it and is waiting on the part we need to fix the mother board. Its been so hot in my house we cant do much like cook or clean way to hot so the place is starting to look a mess. I think we have been way to patient and it is really starting to piss us off. We have been camping out in my bedroom I have a small window unit that try to keep my room cool but, at times its even over 80 in my room. Just wish that part would get here and soon.