Bucket List

So, I was sitting here thinking the other night. Something I have way to much time on my hands to do. I was thinking about a bucket list. A bucket list to me means a list or a goal to reach or places I want to see before my time is up on this earth. So, I have started one and will add to it as things pop up in my little head. My list is just a list not in any certain order to do.


1. Florida beach
2. The Grand Canyon
3. Las Vegas
4. Keman Board walk
5. Graduate college with a bachelors in Science Human services degree
6. find a job I will be happy at where I wont have to stand on my feet all the time
7. Justin and Josh graduate from high school
8. have grandbaby
9. Volunteer 
10. meet my brothers and sisters from my bio dads side 
11. Cheesecake factory

Weekend away....

     I just had one of the best weekends ever. Dennis and I CELEBRATED our 5th wedding anniversary on Saturday so, we decided to take the boys and get out of town. On saturday we ended up in New Braunfels at the schlitterbahn water park. We met my cousin Rasler and his family there and we had a blast going down all the rides. We spent the day till about 7pm and then we drove to San Antonio got a room spent the night ate a wonderful meal at Maria Mia Mexican Bistro the food was great the service not so hot. I drank a Mia Rita and got a lil tipsy. We walked down on the riverwalk for a while and Dennis bought me a beautiful purle and silver cross to add to the collection on my wall. I also got a wonderful card and a dozen red roses from him.

     Sunday we started the day with eating at Dennys down town. Then we went down to the river and got on one of those river boats and did a tour that was so cool. We walked the river then went into the big mall on the river then over to the Alamo we went to see the monument that was neat to. Then after that I had a full day and was tired of walking and was just ready to make the 4 hour drive home. One of the best times ever with my family.

Waiting

Well while I am waiting for Justin to get off work. I thought I'd just say I am actually doing okay. Letting go and knowing I did what was best for me isn't hurting and lingering as much this time as it once it. No tears will be shed for you. Helps to have all my real friends rally for me to. I am not facing it all alone.

     Life proves to be surprising to me sometimes. I have been going through so much change in the last few months. I am watching Justin my 16 year old son grow up way to fast. He has his DL will be in the 11Th grade when school starts back up in the spring and he has a part time job at Wendy's. I am so proud of him out of his older siblings he has done so much on his own with out thinking something is just going to be handed to him. My youngest Joshua is 12 and will be going into Jr High school in the spring. He is also now in the youth at church and getting to do things he has never done before and he is loving it.

     Today I am dealing with the pain of having to let go of a friendship that meant a lot to me. A friendship I have had a very long time. I had to think long and hard about it but, Dennis said I can not continue with this toxic friendship anymore. Dennis said she is nothing but a spoiled  who will always have her mommy and daddy to lean on and pay her bills and keep a roof over her head while she boo hoos on the internet to people she thinks are her friends and plays the victim and look at poor pitiful me ..feel sorry for me...Okay so that's Dennis view of her but, after a talk he asked me sit there and write down all the good things now write down all the bad. Now tell me when has she ever really been there for you? How many times has she held your hand and been there? She really hasn't. She will never be on your level Amy. She don't know what its like to have children and to struggle wonder how your going to feed your kids or keep a roof over your head. I guess in a lot of ways he is right. Our friendship has been toxic. I am still in shock though I never thought she would of done what she did. Talk about me like that behind my back then lie and say she didn't say any names okay does that make it any better? No, you still ran your mouth about someone you supposedly cared about. Someone who was suppose to be your best friend. How sad are you that you need attention so bad you stooped so low. I am sorry this is not the kind of friend I want. I can not trust you and never will again. So, yes it is best to say good bye and be done with the friendship. I have other friends and I know God will open the door for me to have another Best friend a better good friendship for me. Not one who will constantly hurt me.

     On a better note Rebecca came to visit with her daughter Elizabeth a week ago. I really enjoyed our time together. I also really love those girls. We had good talks and a great visit. We all went to Schlitterbahn in Galveston. Which included Dacoda and Justin GF Heaven. We had so much fun. 

     Our AC went out in the house and has been out now for 9 days the AC man came out and looked at it and is waiting on the part we need to fix the mother board. Its been so hot in my house we cant do much like cook or clean way to hot so the place is starting to look a mess. I think we have been way to patient and it is really starting to piss us off. We have been camping out in my bedroom I have a small window unit that try to keep my room cool but, at times its even over 80 in my room. Just wish that part would get here and soon.

figures we messed the dates up

Today started off pretty early for this mamma. I had had about 3 hours of sleep when I hit the floor running because I had to get over to the new house to unload the stuff from Justin's room into the new house. Well it was a good thing I had a few minutes to look at my kiddos DL paperwork because he has actually missed his driving test day by 3 days it was on the 22nd not the 25th and of course I never looked I just assumed what was said was correct so now he has to go back on Tuesday and take his DL driving test at 4. Poor kid I know he was so disappointed. Well we will get it done just a few days later then originally planned. This weekend is a 3 weekend holiday we will be getting everything moved out of this house and moved to the next. I am so excited to get into our big house. Life will be good finally lord knows we deserve this good fortune. I praise god in the glory.

His birthday

Today is my youngest 12th birthday.  I can't believe how fast the years have passed. Josh will also be starting the 7TH grade that means Jr high school. Wow! I know josh will love the 3ds system we bought him

Sandman

I really hate when I finally go to bed. Even really late and I lay there for hours wide a wake.  My brain just won't shut down. Got so much going on. Ready to be moved to my new house next week can't get here fast enough.