trying to walk worthy...

     I want to tell you all about the wonderful time I spent with some of the ladies from my church Oct. 13-16. We had an awesome retreat. We drove down Thursday had lunch at Ryan's in Lake Jackson then we headed over to Walmart where 4 groups was given list of grocery's to get for the weekend. I went with Kathy where we got breakfast foods and deli meats and cheeses. The off we went with the church van full of stuff to Surfside, Texas where we had an awesome house on stilts right on the beach.

     I spent the whole weekend in the glorious beautiful weather on the beach learning how to "walk worthy" I have to say it has strengthened my faith some on my god. We had an awesome guest speaker name Susan she has been through a lot in here life and knows what it is to have a broken life such as I have had. It was also an emotional weekend I did a lot of crying. I sure hope I am able to attend next year also.

     However, I had to come back to reality and the pain in my real life. Its a never ending story of things going wrong. I tried so hard with the funds I get to cover our rent and with Dennis being out of work for so long we still ended up being over drafted in our bank and we are being charged 2.50 a day till we can get it back to a positive standing as of now we are negative 107.41 and counting daily. Dennis(thank you Jesus) finally has a job but, they pay every two weeks he wont get a check till Friday. Which that keeps rent a center calling and wanting to take the washer&dryer,my teen boys beds, and our TV. Stuck in a hard spot. It really upsets me when i start losing my things even though we try so hard to keep our head above water. I know I wish i had all these things paid for but we don't and these are things we need. Okay so maybe we could do with out the TV but, it is nice to have it.
     Then there was the Sunday afternoon Dennis picked me up when I came home from the retreat. He was going about 60 and the driver side front wheel A frame feel apart(i think that is what it is called) So Monday Dennis managed to get a ride to work from a church member then he hitched hiked home. Oh wait I am jumping ahead of myself okay so my car left us on the side of the road broke down. Thank god we had church members stop and help us and even was able to help get our car towed to our house. Thank you god for placing these angels on earth in my life.Okay so now we don't have any idea how Dennis will get back and forth to work and we have no idea how we can pay for our car to get fixed. I had to remind myself that God has this because he soon showed me another angel on this earth and yes another church family member to help us through a hard time. He not only loaned his very nice pickup truck to us to borrow while we are trying to get the car fixed and put back together but, he is making it possible for us to get the parts to fix our vehicle. I am in awe of what god does for us I give him all the glory because I know without him none of this would be possible. I thank god daily for my church family. They are so unlike my "family" which btw is never there for me anyhow. When they help "family" its because they expect more or something from you and to be repaid. My church family says it is a gift from god. I cry at this fact I have never known such kindness. However, I do plan to repay what has been given to me. I am not sure how right now I will mow there yards, or clean there homes etc. and I hope to one day be back on my feet instead of always being kicked down right at the moment when things look like there going to get better.