thoughts....

I had a bad day yesterday. I was tired of no feeling well and finally decided to just go to the Huntsville ER. I really do hate hospitals and the complete unfriendly treatment you get while you have to visit and ER. Its like there are treating robots and not a human. As usual I cam home with both arms blue and bruised because they could not find a vein. The lady who put my IV in did a pretty good job though she managed to get it in the first try but, in a very painful place in my left hand. So, after being there like 6 1/2 hours I was finally able to go home. I was told I need to watch my diet closer and be checked in two days by my doctor(which i don't have one). They said with my blood sugars so high I could of gone into a coma or death. I was dehydrated and was given two bags of fluid.and given shots for sickness and  i got insulin as well. I am feeling better today.

I attended church tonight we had fellowship and bible study. I know last week I wrote on not belonging and I really think in the back of my mind i was searching for a reason to leave my church. I was being selfish and just because I felt disconnected I was looking for the exit. Which I know wasn't right or fair for me to do. Tonight my god found a way for me to have my church family embrace me and show me that people really do care and I don't need to give up so easily.